Heart Of a Soul

This moment of uncertainty, the time just creeping all over me.. I want to stand in the middle but does not able to move myself so want things to just ease down.. I am not able to do . I don’t know what I want how will I pass this moment of lowliness and how I will be alone in this dark. This time just cannot pass. Searching for the light all day but see only darkness. There is no one who can hold my hand .. and keep me awake.. some day .. they think they do things some day they try to move me .. but I don’t know ..
Wht is that which stops this to ever happen.. how will I deal with this pain this sense of lowliness.
How this .. how ..
I am just puzzled ..
Thinking about I don’t know what .. I don’t know wht I need.. and why I need.
Some time u take this some time you think you can get out .. but every thing around just want to grind.. and grind..
They just don’t want me .. to be there for any thing . I hope the tears in my eyes.. can help me out .. but I cried so much that I don’t know wht it will be .. and how I will be again able to move again..
Seeing things .. feeling things but I don’t know wht is going to happen . Some day you wake up.. u feel like this is write this is wht I want to happen .. but no not for a long time..
Its just the darkness.
Which . I want to get out of.. life is just killing me..
One day at a time..
One second in a go.. Some day I want to just forget .. but don’t know wht to forget .. wht is in there to forget .. but it just going on and on.. holding things .. but for wht I am holding this all.
Why why is this the question which is I don’t know why .. why every thing is just ending in a why..
I am crying but I don’t know it can help me..
Wht can help me..
Just the moment .. has passed which will make me happy or .. I am the one who is not going to get tht moment..
I am lonely and will be lonely to the end of the time.. hoping this will be better.. but just hoping ..

I am watching, this sense of loneliness.
I have seen this moment coming.
Waiting to end this .. moment of darkness. To see the light
Some time I cry; some time I feel betrayed; some time I just can’t see ..
Hoping for this time to pass away; fade in the past of mine existence..
These tears, the moments of pauses..
Sometime these tears just want to fall.. to make me cry so hard..
I hope this just end to be able to see the sunshine.. the sun over myself..

I try to make this life so simple.. but is it can be so wht it is said to be .. you thing u watch and u want to know about everything .. in the end you just be there crawling for everyone to look and pass this fucked up life.. I thought I will be happy to make thing so easy for me.. but no.. not a single change that can make.. I am holding.. I want to go away forever but this pain canot make me feel in such a way in tht I am just feeling to just be there .. but no . you do not want me to be there for u.. I am holding this roop for so long that I cannot be .. sure I can take this anymore.. here you think you can make .. me feel so miserable .. so unhappy tht u can live forever..
But u just take it in your mind I don’t give a dam fuck.. I don’t care wht .. u do and wht u want to do..