SomeDay I will be here for you!
This moment of uncertainty, the time just creeping all over me.. I want to stand in the middle but does not able to move myself so want things to just ease down.. I am not able to do . I don’t know what I want how will I pass this moment of lowliness and how I will be alone in this dark. This time just cannot pass. Searching for the light all day but see only darkness. There is no one who can hold my hand .. and keep me awake.. some day .. they think they do things some day they try to move me .. but I don’t know ..
Wht is that which stops this to ever happen.. how will I deal with this pain this sense of lowliness.
How this .. how ..
I am just puzzled ..
Thinking about I don’t know what .. I don’t know wht I need.. and why I need.
Some time u take this some time you think you can get out .. but every thing around just want to grind.. and grind..
They just don’t want me .. to be there for any thing . I hope the tears in my eyes.. can help me out .. but I cried so much that I don’t know wht it will be .. and how I will be again able to move again..
Seeing things .. feeling things but I don’t know wht is going to happen . Some day you wake up.. u feel like this is write this is wht I want to happen .. but no not for a long time..
Its just the darkness.
Which . I want to get out of.. life is just killing me..
One day at a time..
One second in a go.. Some day I want to just forget .. but don’t know wht to forget .. wht is in there to forget .. but it just going on and on.. holding things .. but for wht I am holding this all.
Why why is this the question which is I don’t know why .. why every thing is just ending in a why..
I am crying but I don’t know it can help me..
Wht can help me..
Just the moment .. has passed which will make me happy or .. I am the one who is not going to get tht moment..
I am lonely and will be lonely to the end of the time.. hoping this will be better.. but just hoping ..
I am watching, this sense of loneliness.
I have seen this moment coming.
Waiting to end this .. moment of darkness. To see the light
Some time I cry; some time I feel betrayed; some time I just can’t see ..
Hoping for this time to pass away; fade in the past of mine existence..
These tears, the moments of pauses..
Sometime these tears just want to fall.. to make me cry so hard..
I hope this just end to be able to see the sunshine.. the sun over myself..
I try to make this life so simple.. but is it can be so wht it is said to be .. you thing u watch and u want to know about everything .. in the end you just be there crawling for everyone to look and pass this fucked up life.. I thought I will be happy to make thing so easy for me.. but no.. not a single change that can make.. I am holding.. I want to go away forever but this pain canot make me feel in such a way in tht I am just feeling to just be there .. but no . you do not want me to be there for u.. I am holding this roop for so long that I cannot be .. sure I can take this anymore.. here you think you can make .. me feel so miserable .. so unhappy tht u can live forever..
But u just take it in your mind I don’t give a dam fuck.. I don’t care wht .. u do and wht u want to do..
The more u speak, less I care about u
I know that I am not making this thing to happen
The more u speak, less make me think about u again
I thought I never gona change, but the change u r making in me does no more
The more u speaks less I care, the less of being on the league of not knowing u.
I cannot understand how things can make things to happen and they make me think I am not gona live this way anymore.
I am standing up to this un-distressfulness but I never gone Love u.
The more I think, I just forget what happen to me.
I can quit this but not going to realize that this not going to end this way forever.
I am thinking and thinking about u.
Never heard of the story, A story of being true,
A story that never turns wrong.
ha ha Just wait wait in the way
I am moving, moving so fast,
The story cries, Cries for the mercy.
I Move to make a wrong turn,
Wait wait cry my story,
I just never make this pain to go away.
Truth is not the definition , of Living for
Truth is not how I make.
May I heard the story, Story of the one that Move the mountain.
I have a smile a smile for the world.
I grow, grow for the thought of others
I have the feeling, those feeling just not 4 me.
These eyes cry, cry for the smile, the smile on ur face.
I have not seen the love that unfolds my living this way.
I have few thoughts, thoughts about myself.
My being on this earth.
Is it real to be alive or just a deep untruth shown by the virtually unknown one.
Why I have to catch the wind, why I am the one that has to suffer.
Every time things not move they just make me same irresponsible.
The question that never be answered can this pain ever can be taken.
Why have to fight to get. If everything is for everyone here then how that make me let it go.
I am standing in the arms of the unknown.
Trying to make it big . but don’t know is the big is something around.
It just consuming the every bit of soul remains inside me.
The darkness just taking me inside.
Every time I go for a new start but does, ever anything goes for a start.
Why things don’t pretend to be the joy the fun they have to be.
Why very one just don’t take me in.
why I have to wait to decide that I am not on the track.
The light every time dime’s down over me.
Why they are eating me up.
Dedicated to all that suffer
I thought of it before
but have always found something to live for
Even though pain is sometimes endless
all you need to survive is forgiveness
So give forgiveness to yourself, friends, and family
or people who don't even like you
I promise in the end it will be ok
but for the reason I can not say
But I can tell you one thing that
I hope will make your heart sing
You may not know me but still
I care for if I didn't
I would not be writing this poem for which you stare
Now I will leave you with one last thought
Life is what you make it so please
I beg you don't take it
